Sunday, December 30, 2001

| 8:03 PM |
And for the first time, I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
You're mine forever now

- The Smashing Pumpkins

| 7:42 PM |
I'll ride with you tonight, I'll ride forever
There's no way to predict this kind of weather

- Whiskeytown

| 12:59 AM |
I need a glass of water!

Tuesday, December 25, 2001

| 2:27 PM |
Last night I went over to Jaime's house to hang out. Dale was there too.

A bunch of us decided to go out to a bar instead of Midnight Mass. Dale and Jaime are on the C&E Plan for church attendance. Go for Christmas, go for Easter. Last night, though, it didn't take much convincing to get them out of it.

So me, Dale, Jaime, Jaime's sister Gina, and Jaime's neighbor Joe went in search of a bar.

None were open. Except good old Behan's in Burlingame.

There were so many old friends there that I wasn't expecting to see. Arthur. Katiemay. I hadn't seen them in at least five years. Brian, too. Cindy, Cindy's older sister, and Cindy's older sister's husband. The last time I saw them, they weren't married. Johnny and Chuck. God knows how long it's been. Other faces that I couldn't place names with until I got home and broke out my junior high yearbook.

I wanted to stay, but everyone else wanted to leave.

I was being way flirty with Gina.

I'm so bad.

But in my defense, I was trying to be only a little bit flirty. What could I do? She's such a cutey.

Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm incorrigable.

| 1:35 AM |
"I was driving around Burlingame and I noticed that there were a lot of old people on the road, but then I realized I was, like, an old person."

- my mommy

Monday, December 24, 2001

| 3:48 PM |
Jay Farrar is playing at the Knitting Factory on February 2, 2002. Halleluah!

Sunday, December 23, 2001

| 8:08 PM |
In my mind, I'm coming up with a video for Damien Jurado's song "Ghost in the Snow."

It's beautiful.

Saturday, December 22, 2001

| 1:58 PM |
From the LA Times:

Capricorn (Dec. 22-Jan. 19):
Let go of preconceived notions. Highlight inventiveness, make fresh start in new direction. Be pleased to know that love is not unrequited. Leo involved.

Wednesday, December 19, 2001

| 11:49 PM |
I've been listening to way too much Dashboard Confessional lately.

Because my favorite line in Ocean's Eleven when I saw it tonight was when Danny asks Tess, "Does he make you laugh?"

Ugh. I'm such a hopeless romantic.

| 11:46 PM |
This is how I look right now.

| 11:44 PM |
Me n' the Ess-Dog were watching F-City.

The Ess-Dog: What do you think of Felicity's straight hair?
Me: It works, I guess.
The Ess-Dog: At first I thought it made her look older, but now I think it makes her look younger.
Me: I think it makes her look naughty.
The Ess-Dog: Shut up.

| 12:02 PM |
From The Onion:

Boyfriend Ceremoniously Dumped

ELLENSBURG, WA—In a gala breakup featuring the town mayor and the Ellensburg High School marching band, Chris Schiffman was ceremoniously dumped Sunday by Vicki Arness, his girlfriend of three years. "Ladies and gentlemen of Ellensburg, let the word go forth from this day that Vicki and Chris are no longer an item!" Mayor Robert Todd announced before 3,000 cheering attendees. "Vicki has let it be known that she wishes to see other people, and see other people she shall!" The scissors-wielding mayor then officially declared the couple broken up by cutting an oversized photo of them in half.

Tuesday, December 18, 2001

| 2:58 PM |
I want the new Dashboard Confessional EP right now!!! I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!!

Monday, December 17, 2001

| 5:05 PM |
I am waaaaay too nice to people who call me on the phone to sell stuff.

| 10:06 AM |
Today is first weekday of winter break. Campus is a ghost town.

It's the time of the year when the construction workers outnumber the students.

Wednesday, December 12, 2001

| 11:28 AM |
Jacqueline came up to me to turn in her test for Psychology 170B. With a big ol' grin she said, "Nicole wants me to tell you that she hates you."

Unsure of who exactly she was talking about, I asked, "Which Nicole?"

"Nicole E.," she said. "I told her you were proctoring this exam."

Ohhhh. I get it. I smiled. I didn't go to Nicole's party last Friday.

My day has been made. I take great comfort in knowing that people talk about me when I'm not there.

And in related news, two people added me to their favorite diary list (well, Beecroft put me back on after taking me off a couple of months ago).

For today only, my self-worth will be based on social acceptance and how much I am liked by my peers. Tomorrow, though, it's going back to what I'm doing to make the world a better place.

Tuesday, December 11, 2001

| 10:19 AM |
Stepped out into the night
Put my feet down on wet patio floor
The sky's air had been cooling
Steam rose from everywhere

Oh who is this?
Where was she all those crazy years?
Where was she when my heart couldn't take its beat?

- Saves the Day

Monday, December 10, 2001

| 6:32 PM |
A $497.91 check to Capital One.

Kiss that credit card bill GOODBYE FOREVER.

Let me get this straight...I'm paying all this money so that in the future I'll have more money? I think that's how it works when you pay off credit cards.

Well, I'm fucking poor now because of that check! I'm fucked for the holidays!

| 2:05 PM |
Writing tests is fun.

From the final examination for Psychology 170A: Behavior Modification:

21. Dr. Penfold is conducting an experiment determining the efficacy of a treatment for children who have difficulty reading. He takes baseline data on the participants’ reading abilities and then introduces his intervention, called "Addicted to Grammar." By using an ABAB experimental design, what problem will he likely encounter?

a. Reinforcement control might be difficult to create.
b. If his treatment is ineffective, it is unethical to impose a different treatment program.
c. If his treatment is effective, it will be difficult to return behavior to baseline levels.
d. All of the above
e. a & c only

| 12:17 AM |
Would someone PLEASE remind me to email Gina J back?!

| 12:11 AM |
I have entirely way too many t-shirts in rotation right now.

Thirty-three.

I could make it through an entire month without having to do laundry (if it wasn't for stuff like socks and boxers).

My current favorites are my blue Saves the Day, my blue Mates of State, and as always, my first red Jimmy Eat World.

Saturday, December 08, 2001

| 6:38 PM |
Three instances of pure contentment I've felt over the past twenty-four hours:

a) Driving down Sunset at night, sunroof open, singing to the Get Up Kids' version of "Regret" with the Ess-Dog.

b) Watching Margaret Cho's I'm the One That I Want with Claire laid out on my chest.

c) Web surfing in the afternoon, listening to Superchunk.

I made a decision on a domain name to purchase. You'll have to wait a couple of months to find out what it is.

Friday, December 07, 2001

| 10:56 PM |
Can you say manic episode?

I am climbing up the walls with energy. I don't know what's gotten into me. I am forcing myself to not talk because I have been a blabbering idiot all night, spouting off stupidness from my mouth like I-Don't-Know-What.

I just finished watching Margaret Cho's I'm the One That I Want. I love Margaret Cho.

I also bought Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure on DVD for ten dollars.

Wednesday, December 05, 2001

| 11:16 PM |
Further evidence that I am chock full o' contradictions:

Lately, I can't stop listening to "Sundays and Holidays" by Red House Painters.

And the more I listen to the new Rival Schools album, the more I like it.

Tuesday, December 04, 2001

| 10:33 AM |
So I'm wondering, is it too early in the morning for me to be listening to Barry White?

The answer, my friends, is a qualified "Hell no!"

Monday, December 03, 2001

| 11:07 PM |
If you know what's good for you, you'll go over to Polyvinyl Records and download the new Mates of State song.

| 2:10 PM |
sit in the lazy chair all day
remembering the things you do
so when you come home
i'll jump up to kiss you

whoa oh oh I think I'm rearing to go ...

- Saves the Day